My damn Lenovo C100

right, i'm right now in the middle of my first microcontroller project. and i happened to need a USB to Serial (RS-232) cable to program my damn controller... so what happened when i plugged the cable in? well a Windows Code 41 is what it gave... after trying various things and pulling my hair out for while i came to realise that the BAFO 810 wasnt a real BAFO 810 after all it was fucking chinese fake with a CH341 instead of a Prolific 2303. Thats was IT i was so fucking angry that i wanted to pretty much quit...all right i'll spare you the anguish... after hours and hours of wasting my time... and fromatting my computer twice... i just got this crazy ass idea... wait a minute maybe my chipset is the irrational bastard... so after having failed to get any help online or the complete absence of help topics on this problem... i just updated my intel chipset software... something called OSFIXES that the intel guys put on the lenovo page... AND then it started working... christ it was and ugly expeirience.


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Me and my Big MOUTH!

why? thats like the basic question for me. Always, why the fuck can't i keep my trap shut.

Its like a freaking disease. I say all the wrong things and provoke people at all the wrong times.
i usually pass it off among them and argue about it being frank and all that shit. But seriously thats no bloddy excuse.

i seem to disregard the fact that people have feelings(yeah right!) . Shut up alter-ego, shut UP!.

anyway as i was saying... it always seems so funny to make these outrageous jokes on other people's lives when well... it isnt really funny.

Example : some girl's life got fucked because well... her attendance was short and she wasn't allowed to write any of the exams. and i go over and make fun of the fact that she likes sleeping in the day.

which at that point of time isnt really the thing to be funny about.

similare other case, with people having relationship troubles etc.. i always wondered how my life would end.

i'm nearing the suspicion that it'll be suicide.

i'll say something really ugly and that bugger will murder me for it... it'll be a proper case of suicide, me and my Fucking BIG MOUTH.

The Haunting of an Ugly Past.

its said that the past always comes back to haunt you. Exactly at the time you least expect it. Thats pretty wrong.

The damn things doesnt give a shit about whether you are expecting it or not. It comes and haunts you just the same.

Blasted thing. In this ugly society of ours, a failure isnt let go of easily. whatever you do after that.. acheive great things become the freaking president of the country and still they'll point out that you've failed in the past.

alright, i didnt clear the damn JEE can we leave it now???? Why is it that whenever a far off, duller, fat slob of a cousin gets through its rubbbed into your face that you didnt. You didnt get through to a decent college(anything other than an IIT is apparently a disgrace).

so today, no matter what i'll do. no matter what i've done. after i've finished half my engineering, my cousins and my parents and my "classmates" pretty much do the sneering. its UGLY to say the least. Why does ability get masked by marks.

what kind of acountry do i live in? where will the pressure to get out of this blasted Rat Race of a life be a little less?

one thing is for sure. if it were upto me i'd make sure none of those who i care about will ever have to face the ugly crowd vieing for place in this blasted sub-continent.

The eternal time gap. regular blogging, concerning me is a total misnomer. I just dont feel like writing anything in. that's what i tell myself mostly... but its more about laziness than the actual dont "feel" like writing.



Why would i want to write on this page??? i've answered it in my first post, but i couldnt convince myself. :)



Okay, so between then(i.e. my last post) ......and now, Quite a bit has happened. I've turned 18, become a cynic and am exactly half way through to completing my Bachelors Degree.



And... i've immersed myself into Debates and organising things. Got myself an ugly reputation.

( previously i had no reputation to talk about). People hate me... which means i'm doing all the right things. So all in all a world of change has happened. And somehow on the inside, i'm not ALL that different.



I've changed, as in i've become a bit Rude to people to people who i dont like much. Sweeter to those i care about, and open indifference to those things i really dont give a shit about.



so, i've put the feigned Hypocrisy behind me


and as people say rather blandly... moved on to better things.